The Deep Knowing
On instinct, attachment, and listening to the voice within
I wish I knew why I feel these things so deep in me, the deep call to nurture, the pull to keep my baby close to me. Maybe it is something ancestral, maybe it is something from my childhood, and maybe both, but whatever it is, it is there. Taking up the corners of my heart, pulling at my soul and making its way into every inch of my brain.
Raising children in a really loving and secure way is not something I just want to do, it feels like I don’t have another option. The pull is so strong, the calling continues to call me, so I take steps toward that voice. It says, rest your baby on your bare skin, keep them there awhile, have them next to you in bed, may their home be safe and peaceful.
I call this the pull, because it is a true pulling of my body, heart, soul and mind. It pulls me into what I need to do. I don’t have to try, I just be my full self and follow this pull. It knows what my baby needs, it knows what the next best step is. It doesn’t need to follow a book or podcast, it just knows.
If you’re a mother who feels this pull deeply, I invite you to stop questioning it, wondering where it came from or where it started. Just follow it. Let it pull you into what you’re meant to do. If people ask you why you choose what you choose, you can say the deep knowing in my body trusts that this is the way. I trust it day in and day out. I let myself be taken by the pull.